Panic attacks, anxiety, depression! What’s it to you?

Panic attacks, anxiety, depression! What’s it to you?

 

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I briefly mentioned in a couple of my other posts about the different disabilities I suffer from. Mental and physical! I have received questions about this and wanted to open up to you. Talk to you about a couple of mental health struggles I deal with. Panic attacks, anxiety and depression! This will be a 2 part post.

***Please stay tuned for tomorrow’s post!

Part 2 of Panic attacks, anxiety, and depression!***

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When it started

I have been suffering from panic attacks since I was in kid. Although the first one I truly remember was when I was about 15. I was at the mall with my mom. It was day time and there was a lot of people. People everywhere. So many people, I couldn’t breath. I felt like I was gasping for air. My chest was on fire and my body was tingling. Then everything went black. I remember telling my mom that something was wrong and calling the feeling I had “Hot f*in tinkles”. (She thought the description was weird and actually wrote it down in her planner so she can talk to my doctor about it).  I don’t really remember anything else about that day.

I couldn’t comprehend what had happened, what made me have that feeling.

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Started getting more frequent

After that day, the panic attacks came more frequently. Whether it happened in the middle of school, or in the middle of a store. Or just hanging out with my friends at the park. They started to disrupt my life. I felt like I couldn’t go anywhere without having an attack. If I can just stay home where no one is around I would be ok.

Disrupting my daily life

Eventually I started becoming a hermit. I would stay home and wallow in my pity while my friends are out having a good time. Going out to eat, to parties, even to those all age clubs they used to have in the 90’s. Always made an excuse not to go. Eventually I became depressed and angry. I felt as if I didn’t have anything to live for. I started not caring. About myself or anyone else.

Losing my friends

One by one my friends weren’t there. They were living their lives and I was home. Alone. Miserable.

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I need help

Day after day the anxiety and depression got worse. I was on a one track rollercoaster of emotions and I couldn’t get off. At 19-year-old I finally went to seek help. I was diagnosed with Obsessive-compulsive disorder, Social & General Anxiety, and Major Depression. And for my prize of being so “f*ed up” I got prescriptions for pills. Yay! NOT!

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Alternatives

I was never one to take pills. I actually hate taking any type of medicine. Even more so now, than when I was younger. Especially after watching my sisters fight! So I decided to start looking into alternative ways to help with my anxiety and depression. I started going to therapy. Cognitive behavior therapy. It helped. Not enough, but it was working. I needed something more.

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Cigarettes

I started to smoke cigarettes. My mom, sister, and stepdad all smoked. They didn’t have the problems I did. Maybe smoking cigarettes will help. THAT WAS A BIG FAT FAIL!. I am still smoking 17 years later. It’s a horrible gross disgusting habit that I need to work on cutting.

Drugs and alcohol

Thanks to my sister and learning from her mistakes I stayed away from both.

Stay tuned for tomorrow’s post on what I finally got to help with my mental health!

 

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Do you or someone you know suffer from depression or anxiety?

How about panic attacks?

What have you tried to overcome your fears?

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