Panic attacks, anxiety, depression! What’s it to you?

Panic attacks, anxiety, depression! What’s it to you?


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I briefly mentioned in a couple of my other posts about the different disabilities I suffer from. Mental and physical! I have received questions about this and wanted to open up to you. Talk to you about a couple of mental health struggles I deal with. Panic attacks, anxiety and depression! This will be a 2 part post.

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Part 2 of Panic attacks, anxiety, and depression!***

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When it started

I have been suffering from panic attacks since I was in kid. Although the first one I truly remember was when I was about 15. I was at the mall with my mom. It was day time and there was a lot of people. People everywhere. So many people, I couldn’t breath. I felt like I was gasping for air. My chest was on fire and my body was tingling. Then everything went black. I remember telling my mom that something was wrong and calling the feeling I had “Hot f*in tinkles”. (She thought the description was weird and actually wrote it down in her planner so she can talk to my doctor about it).  I don’t really remember anything else about that day.

I couldn’t comprehend what had happened, what made me have that feeling.

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Started getting more frequent

After that day, the panic attacks came more frequently. Whether it happened in the middle of school, or in the middle of a store. Or just hanging out with my friends at the park. They started to disrupt my life. I felt like I couldn’t go anywhere without having an attack. If I can just stay home where no one is around I would be ok.

Disrupting my daily life

Eventually I started becoming a hermit. I would stay home and wallow in my pity while my friends are out having a good time. Going out to eat, to parties, even to those all age clubs they used to have in the 90’s. Always made an excuse not to go. Eventually I became depressed and angry. I felt as if I didn’t have anything to live for. I started not caring. About myself or anyone else.

Losing my friends

One by one my friends weren’t there. They were living their lives and I was home. Alone. Miserable.


I need help

Day after day the anxiety and depression got worse. I was on a one track rollercoaster of emotions and I couldn’t get off. At 19-year-old I finally went to seek help. I was diagnosed with Obsessive-compulsive disorder, Social & General Anxiety, and Major Depression. And for my prize of being so “f*ed up” I got prescriptions for pills. Yay! NOT!

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I was never one to take pills. I actually hate taking any type of medicine. Even more so now, than when I was younger. Especially after watching my sisters fight! So I decided to start looking into alternative ways to help with my anxiety and depression. I started going to therapy. Cognitive behavior therapy. It helped. Not enough, but it was working. I needed something more.

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I started to smoke cigarettes. My mom, sister, and stepdad all smoked. They didn’t have the problems I did. Maybe smoking cigarettes will help. THAT WAS A BIG FAT FAIL!. I am still smoking 17 years later. It’s a horrible gross disgusting habit that I need to work on cutting.

Drugs and alcohol

Thanks to my sister and learning from her mistakes I stayed away from both.

Stay tuned for tomorrow’s post on what I finally got to help with my mental health!


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Do you or someone you know suffer from depression or anxiety?

How about panic attacks?

What have you tried to overcome your fears?

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  • Robin Rue

    When I get in large crowds, I have panic attacks. I am not sure exactly why, but I start to feel trapped and end up fainting….

  • Jessica Diane-Carrie Baggs

    Goo for you for sharing your experiences. I’ve experienced panic attacks and depression and I’ve needed to get help with it. There is no shame in it. I still suffer even though I can manage it better, it never goes away. Good luck to you, love.

  • Thank you for sharing your personal story. I think it helps those that are suffering to know that they are not a lone when it comes to these types of issues. So many people view anything related to mental illness as bad or weird, but we all suffer, at least a little, throughout our lives with some form. When people judge, it makes those suffering go into hiding often – so glad you are putting yourself out there to bring them back into the light. <3

  • liz

    A friend of mine and I were just talking about anxiety attacks and depression last week. She is a doctor but gets anxiety attacks in the wee hours in the morning. Apparently, she was able to find herself calming down whenever she calls me so I try to be there for her whenever she gets those attacks. She’s always there for me just the same whenever I need help with my son. Sometimes, having close friends really help, I guess. 🙂

  • This would be hard. I’m glad you were able to get help. Thank you for sharing your story.

  • kathy

    Hey Stacey, Thanks for sharing your struggle and the things that have helped. I too struggle with depression. Mine started when my husband left me after 37 years of marriage. I never realized how debilitating depression could be, now I understand. I am currently taking antidepressants. I hate taking meds too but for now I will continue. Thanks again Stacey:-)

  • Amy

    So brave for sharing your story. I’m sure you’ve received loads of support. I too suffer with anxiety and depression and its been a big battle with myself.

  • Journaling/Blogging is a great outlet! Good for you for seeking the help you needed! By the way, you probably did good by missing all those age clubs in the 90’s lol!

  • I have depression and anxiety too and I remember having panic attacks from a young age too. Luckily my panic attacks are rarer these days and I am better at handling them. Really hope you are ok and have some people to support you x

  • Celeste Wright

    Thank you so much for sharing this with us.
    This is something that I can relate to and it is nice to hear another person’s experiences.

    Celeste |

  • Brandi Kennedy

    I think it’s brave of you to open up and talk about the way you’ve been working to achieve mental wellness. Can’t wait to see tomorrow’s post – because I struggle with the same issues and am always looking to add to my treatment options.

  • Nicole Anderson

    While your readers would definitely feel for the suffering you went through, it is so great that you are happy to openly discuss it. It seems so many people really find it hard to muster the courage to discuss issues associated with mental health, due to the stigma that most people have had about it. I admire you for moving forward the way that you are.

  • Thank you for sharing your experiences. I hope it can really help others. My sister suffered badly from panic attacks when she was younger.

  • Shannon Graham

    I am so sorry you have had to struggle through this for so many years. I honestly had no idea that I struggled with anxiety attacks until I was older and realized what they were.

  • I have had anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. It means my life, it means being scared of everything, it means not knowing whats going on. Thank you for sharing your experiences, it makes me feel like I’m not as alone.

  • David E

    My ex suffers from many of those issues. And she has tried a lot of therapy but it hasn’t seemed to help much unfortunately.

  • Jhentea Guzman

    what an inspiration! it’s a brave thing of yours to share stories like this, i used to have depression before, closed to panic attacks.. i can totally relate to this post.

  • RebelSweetHrt

    I get panic attacks when I am overly stressed. Not the best feeling in the world.

  • Benita Makachi

    Bravo! You are strong and Barcelona for sharing your experience. Letting it all out is one step ahead. Xx

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  • Dani Naughton

    so brave of you to open up about your experiences with mental health issues. i wish it was talked about more in society because it really is so important

  • You are strong because you have been through a lot already. I don’t suffer from anxiety but I dislike being in a crowd.

  • Neha Verma

    Great that you chose to share your post. Even I tend to get anxious and tense very often. So, I can relate to this situation to some extent

  • Thank you so much for sharing, I really understand your story as I go through a similar thing and it’s a tough thing to get past. Especially when your missing out on things with your friends when there’s no way past it x

  • I can relate to you on so many levels. I have anxiety that is mostly triggered in social situations. It was pretty bad in my teenage years but I’ve made some progress in my early adulthood. Good for you for sharing as I know this will be helpful to many.

  • Cindy Nicoletti

    I can relate. When I was younger I did also suffer from panic attacks. Very hard to deal with. I over came them and haven’t had one in so many years. There is no embarrassment. I had to seek help to deal with it and they finally ended.

  • This is a great resourse. I’m sure so many people can relate.

  • Had to go through all the rough time of your life, you are such a strong person. Your article will help a lot of people.


  • Love30

    Well done for telling your story. Im sure that It’ll help and inspire a lot of people. Looking forward to reading the next part. Ree love3p

  • Angel

    I suffer regularly from anxiety. My doctor has me take clonidine, used to treat high blood pressure and nonznarcotic, and it works fairly well. Thanks for sharing such a personal topic.

  • I used to get anxiety driving after an accident that I had. I also get really bad anxiety when I’m in high places including flying in planes.

  • Lisa Rios

    My friend has panic attacks. She said her doctor told her that part of it was dehydration, so now she carries a water bottle everywhere. She also tries to work out and do exercise and occupy herself. She struggles, but she does mostly well.

  • mail4rosey

    I hope you can kick the smoking habit. Best thing I ever did was put those nasty things away. I’m glad they’re losing popularity in the U.S. I’m sorry that you have been touched by depression. I know someone who is living with it and who faces struggles regularly because of it. My heart goes out to you both.

  • Sushmita Thakare Jain

    Thank you for sharing your story and inspiring us all 🙂

  • I had anxiety attacks pretty bad growing up. I wanted to lock myself in my room for days. One day I wanted not to be scared anymore. Counselling helped me, and now I want nothing more than to be outside travelling the world. So I am happy to hear you are seeking help. Nobody should have to live with depression, anxiety and panic attacks.

  • Jasmine Anderson

    Panic attacks are no fun! I’ve had my share of them and having an outlet to talk about it makes a big difference.

  • jillconyers

    Panic attacks are serious and shouldn’t be taken likely. You’re smart to get help.

  • I have so many friends that suffer from this sort of stuff. It’s hard.

  • I suffer on anxiety and depression although this days I manage it a lot better.

    • I am glad your able to manage it better.